[Because she's concerned. Because she has so many questions, including how she knows what she knows about Jordana's world. If the things are even real.]
...But I'm not sure I like the idea of you on your own right now.
I really don't want to frenzy on anyone. Just leave me alone. It's
for your own good.
[And Vex would know how bad frenzying could be from her time as Fera.
Nevermind that Jordana only frenzied these days through supernatural means.
She wasn't Ren.]
[Over her two decades of being Garou, Jordana had heard more stories and
tales than she could conceivably access consciously. It was a rich trove of
information for the Void to make use of, from something she'd seen but not
understood at the time of observation, to one of the many takes told around
the fire at that Beltane she attended. Or even passing gossip.]
Harano can't be healed. It spiritually breaks you. It never goes
away. You just find a reason to keep going and hope you can bear the weight
when the next awful thing that makes you ask why you're still fighting a
war you can't podsibly win.
Surely you can understand why it's difficult for me to accept my mere existence being a punishment to you, or something that could only hurt you. If I thought you really meant it that way, I'd be hurt, darling.
[She knows it's not what the Garou means though.]
And believe me, I would leave you alone if I though it would do you any good.
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voice;
Are you planning on avoiding me forever?
Re: voice;
[Yes. Hence the text response a couple minutes later.]
I'm avoiding everyone.
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[Obviously, but it seems worth saying.]
Unless you wouldn't object to me tracking you down?
[Still voice, and very confident she could.]
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If I wanted to be found, I'd be somewhere even the teenage boy could find me.
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Obviously. I'd be buried in embarrassment instead of sadness.
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[It wasn't. She barely escaped Harano last month. Shit, did Vex know what Harano was now? Did Gurahl fall prey to the mood disorder too?]
I don't want to be around anyone.
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[Because she's concerned. Because she has so many questions, including how she knows what she knows about Jordana's world. If the things are even real.]
...But I'm not sure I like the idea of you on your own right now.
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And I've had enough of my nose being rubbed in everything I can't have like I'm some dog that shit in the house.
Look, Vex, it's not you. It's not the others that got stuck with me. It's me. So just... don't.
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Absolutely not. It'll be a miracle if she and I ever talk again.
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I really don't want to frenzy on anyone. Just leave me alone. It's for your own good.
[And Vex would know how bad frenzying could be from her time as Fera. Nevermind that Jordana only frenzied these days through supernatural means. She wasn't Ren.]
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But I also have a bit better idea why you're suffering like this...
[Which to say, the Gurahl do have their own version of this. And she knows about it—somehow?]
Please, talk to me a bit.
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[Over her two decades of being Garou, Jordana had heard more stories and tales than she could conceivably access consciously. It was a rich trove of information for the Void to make use of, from something she'd seen but not understood at the time of observation, to one of the many takes told around the fire at that Beltane she attended. Or even passing gossip.]
Do Not Suffer Thy People to Tend Thy Sickness
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[And she remembers it. Jordana was stubborn about it then, and she will be now.]
I could argue that Gurahl fancy themselves healers, which I suspect you know because I certainly didn't before.
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Harano can't be healed. It spiritually breaks you. It never goes away. You just find a reason to keep going and hope you can bear the weight when the next awful thing that makes you ask why you're still fighting a war you can't podsibly win.
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What part of me not wanting to have my nose rubbed in what I can't have are you not understanding?
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[She knows it's not what the Garou means though.]
And believe me, I would leave you alone if I though it would do you any good.
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It's not your existence or presence that's the issue. It's everything else that comes with it.
[The memories, the questions.]
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[In this picture: Vex being the biggest hypocrite on the planet.]
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Watch me.
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We'll see how many innocent wolves I have to harass before I find you.
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